When you can get to that place where you know your worth,
That place will be all you need to understand who you can and cannot fall in love with.
I remain intrigued by all the ways that God is able to slide a blessing into the different situations that make up our lives. What is so amazing is that He warps even the things stained by this tainted world into things of beauty…
It reminds me of a dandelion. Growing up, dandelions were my way of knowing that my wishes could come true. I was told at a young age, that if I only blew on the seeds of a dandelion the words I wished on prior to my exhale would be made true. I found such beauty in knowing that the dandelion could make all my dreams realities, if I just believed.
It surprised me later on in my life, when I found out that dandelions are merely weeds that grow far too often in the grass that some of us are too lazy to care for. There was nothing special about them, and they truly were just a nuisance to nature and the growth of other plants.
I still find though, that what I had learned during my childhood, the myth that I had been taught, had an even deeper lesson behind it.
The bigger lesson is that even in a weed, one can find happiness. Even in despair, one can find hope. Even in a problem, one can find a blessing.
And it was earlier today that I had the chance to once again see this concept take the stage in my life…
As I headed out the door this morning in a rush, the only thing on my mind was getting to work on time. It is only after having locked the door behind me, and turning to unlock my car, that I realized that I had left my keys inside. No, not just my house keys, but my whole keychain with both my house keys and car keys on it. My heart sank as I realized the predicament that I was in. I was locked out of my house, with no way back in. I was locked out of my car, so I could not even get to work; and of course, my housemate had left just the day before to go back home for a month’s time. In simpler language: I was screwed. The light had not completely dimmed at the end of the tunnel though, there was always my landlord that I could call on for assistance.
After a few rings, my landlord picked up the phone and greeted me, and after explaining my problem to him, it is then that I realized that the light at the end of the tunnel was beginning to dim. My landlord was out of town, and would be for the next couple of days. Hope was beginning to lose its way now, and I felt the emotions begin to appear as my vision blurred from the tears forming in my eyes. Not wanting to become too emotional, and in trying to distract my mind from the problem at hand, I began my hour long walk to work, which mind you is only a five minute drive.
The story can be longer, but I find that that would be unnecessary, so here comes the silver lining…with a splash of necessary context first.
After having lived in my apartment with my housemate for about a month now, I have learned some of her living habits, and mainly the habits that do not necessarily coincide with mine. The cleanliness and organization that I find necessary to keep up a home, do not quite fall in line with her ways, and in fact I have seen careless ways more so than anything displayed by her. My annoyance and frustration with her tendencies, I had not a clue would lead to my miracle.
Upon arriving to work and talking with my co-workers about my problem, one of them suggested I use a method she had used when she had been in the same predicament before. See, when my co-worker was locked out of her house, she found an unlocked window to open and go through.
Jogging my memory to think back to a time I had opened a window since I moved in, I realized that there had not been one instance where I had…continuing to think, I remembered when my roommate had opened a window once before to let some fresh air in. Knowing my housemate, something told me that there was a chance that when she closed the window, she did not lock it behind her….and it is in that moment that I realized how God had designed one of the blessings he had for me this day.
Needless to say, I got a ride home from my co-worker and we were able to open the window; but I knew as soon as it happened that the simplicity of popping off the screen and sliding up the window held no comparison to the true depth of the situation.
See, all this time I had been building up resentment for my housemate due to the small things that I have seen her do that just seem careless to me. I had no idea that her “careless” ways would be the reason why I am sitting in my air-conditioned apartment, writing this post right now.
My very frustration was my blessing. My annoyance turned into my miracle. My weed became my dandelion full of hope.
God is truly amazing, to be able to create goodness in what we see to be bad, is purely genius. I thank God for always finding ways to humble me, because the Lord knows that I need it.
It is so amazing to me that I was literally able to see this famous saying in real life today:
When a door closes, God will open a window.
I need to release
Like I used to
Words on a page
Like I’m used to
So caught up in life
And ways of living
Lost in confusion
a slave to this illusion
Perspiring cause I’m not who I used to be
All these new experiences, shaping me
Struggling to find content with who I am
Lies to myself and fun go hand in hand
This is not my foundation
These paper bricks only stand because of the cement base
All this is such a waste
A mocking form of release
A lie to myself that this is what it’s about
Bandwagon and soon I’ll fall out
I need to get back to what I know I know
Success on the horizon
Soon to attain my goals
No need to fall right before I soar
In the end I know where I want to be
The steps to get there need to be taken now
No need to get lost to be found
No need to fall to rise up
Let me be a better me
I don’t need a history
I don’t need a sob story or distress
I can become what I want to be
It can be done unrecklessly
Let me be who I know that I am
Let me release.
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As a recently turned 20 year old who lives on their own, this happens. People sometimes ask how old I am, or when a particular event happened in my life, and when I say an age, I immediately curse in my head and say, “crap, I’m 20 now. Seventeen feels like last week, eighteen was yesterday, and this morning I was nineteen. When did I get this far?”
But the fact that some geniuses were laughed at does not imply that all who are laughed at are geniuses. They laughed at Columbus, they laughed at Fulton, they laughed at the Wright brothers. But they also laughed at Bozo the Clown.
It’s not a dead end if it takes you somewhere you need to go.
Neither seek nor avoid, take what comes.